Tuesday 12 May 2009

WHEN I FOUND OUT I WAS 'DIFFERENT'

As you are waiting for a couple of days for the next stage of awareness, I thought I would tell you how I first became aware that what I could do was different. It was whilst I was on the telephone to a friend. After quite a while I said I would have to go as the smell of her bacon was making me feel really hungry. She asked what I meant. "well, you had bacon for breakfast didn't you". She was stunned and asked how I could have known that. Impatiently, as though SHE were the daft one, I told her I could smell it. You can imagine what sort of things she said then.

After this episode I still thought she was the one being a bit daft and so I started asking everyone I met "YOU can smell things down the telephone can't you?", I would ask all and sundry. "No" they replied looking at me strangely. That was when I started to question other things in my life. Until then, I thought it was perfectly natural to be able to smell all sorts of things in peculiar ways. I suppose I never really thought about how it happened and just assumed it happened to everyone.

From then on I realised that the way I knew things about people and could appear to see into them was also different. I was rather judgemental about people because I could see things about them and couldn't understand why no one else could. I can still see into them, but have learnt not to look into eyes too closely now and am able to control it.

A lady I worked with once asked me why I looked people up and down when I first met them. I hadn't realised I did that. She said I did it very quickly and that most people weren't aware that I did it to them. (That would include me then!). It became obvious that without realising it, I was "reading" them as they approached me. I had no idea I was doing it. It is due to this very thing with natural mediums, psychics or whatever, that discipline needs to be taught or learnt. I never went anywhere to be taught properly due to the experiences I had at a Spiritualist church. Much as they were very pleasant people, they had a strange way of teaching things. They still believe that everyone can be a medium and I know that if it is to be done properly and safely, that NO they can't.

Because of their ways of teaching, I was being told to say things I hadn't got. For example I was told that I must always say that the person had come in love and wanted to send their love to who I was reading for. Tosh. Absolute rubbish. Not everyone who comes through is doing so because they come in love or to bring it to that person. If they didn't like you in life, then they will want to let you recognise them. They will never come with a message you can't understand. I refuse to give anything I have not been given and I also refuse to keep talking when there is no news to impart.

There are some very genuinely gifted people out there, but there again, there are many who aren't and are being given certificates to say they have passed various stages. Therefore, a certificate means nothing in my eyes. I refused to say things I wasn't getting and I also refused to talk about symbols and things being symbolic. That's the big cop out if something you tell someone isn't accepted. They are told to say that it must be symbolic then. If you see a train and ask if the person who has died had connections with that and you said no, then they will automatically say "Oh, it must be symbolic then". They will then try to tell you it means something else you WILL accept and make it fit. A true and genuine medium will not do that. The President of a local Spiritualist church near where I live is a lovely woman and very gifted. She always says that symbols are the mediums' cop out. Well said her.

Anyway, my gifts have been developed naturally. As I needed a lesson, one would be given. I would be very strong in one particular gift and then it would change to another. This carried on until I had experienced many different forms of mediumship. I also do automatic writing which is where one is taken over by another person and given information. The writing I get is nothing at all like mine and I write very quickly and on average 15 foolscap sized pages.

Some is philosophical but much is telling things to occur. The London underground bombing was once such thing and they even said that they were British born which proved to be right. Then there's earthquakes and all manner of things, but it is all said in a cryptic way which means it is clear after the event but would not give enough to prevent it taking place as it was meant to do. Some is personal also but I have asked those who work with me to never, ever tell me anything about my immediate family. I just do not wish to know. That said, I don't mind if they come to me after they have passed and my grandmother is with me very often.

Well, that is a little about where I stand on things. Obviously there is much more to it and this is just a simple outline, but I hope it lets you see a little more of who I am and what I'm about. Next time I'll be able to take you on to the next stage of awareness.

Take care and God Bless,

Lorraine.